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"Unrust" - Lyrics
Tracklisting:
1. It's over and I walk
2. With my words
3. Freezing Rain (instrumental)
4. Habitual
5. Escapists
6. Decompression Chamber
7. At the ruins with a view
8. Cortecide *
9. The Need
10. Tryst (instrumental)
11. Wavering
It's over and I walk
Time reveals a side of people
That you hoped you'd never have to see
But don't worry
What you see is what you get from me
The time has come, to shed this weight
That I've been carrying for so long
I'd like to think that you'll let me
Get this done and move on
But you won't because you are
Selfish and self centered
Only one thing on your mind
And I'm not blind to that little fact
(it's over and I walk)
You can't stop me from leaving
You can try but I'll just fly away
I can't be caged, makes you enraged
Just like every day that I've known you
You'll never learn to let go
You hold so tight that you lose control
When the bow breaks, you will fall
And all your mistakes will take their toll
It's over now
It doesn't matter now
It's. over. and. I. walk away.
With my words
With my words I could elevate you
And with my words I could condemn you
So it's really all, just up to you
Should I speak the truth?
I have the power to save you
Or I could just sit and stare
Do I respect you?
That's why you should choose to care
Maybe it doesn't matter to you
But words can be funny little things
They can work to cement your reputation
Or bring you everlasting shame
Do you want me to tell it how it is,
Or are you happy with the history I've created?
With my words I could paint you
And with my words I could taint you
Make you into a work of art
Or tarnish your image forever
I could easily destroy you
And I could make it seem fair
Do I want to break you?
That's why you should care
Maybe it doesn't matter to you
But words can be funny little things
They can work to cement your reputation
Or bring you everlasting shame
Do you want me to tell them all your lies,
Or are you afraid that they'll despise (you)?
I have the knowledge to teach you
And the eyes to beautify you
Are you willing to respect me otherwise?
Without even trying
I've made you king in their eyes
Without ever lying
I've justified all your crimes
Habitual
Struggling with this it's not an addiction - but it's so hard to shake
Out of touch and out of control it's a cycle that I've gotta break
Seems like everything's fine until someone makes you aware
Then it's all that you can think about and no one seems to care
No one cares about your problems but you
You're on your own, again, this time
It's habitual...
It's a bad habit I know it is, there's no A.A. for this
Just destructive criticism that everyone's willing to give
We can't take the hints from each other but we always lay the blame
It's not our fault or our problem and we'll probably never change
Please tell me how to improve
I promise I won't hold it against you
Ahh that's better now, it's gonna be alright
Knowing I'm a better person now I can sleep soundly tonight
Escapists
The escapist lives to escape to a place where everything is what they want it to be
They wish they could stay there forever even though they'd be better off here (in reality)
This is not his sun, it's not bright enough, it's not warm enough
This is not his job, it's not good enough, it doesn't pay enough
Where is their happy ending?
We got ours, when do they get theirs?
We have what they want
Some of us worked for it but some of us did not
This is not her life, it's not good enough, she's doesn't have enough
These are not her friends, they don't care enough, and they talk too much
The escapists live to get away from us (because we remind them of what they lack)
Alone in the dark with the only person that they trust
Someone really should go there and bring them back from all of their fears (lonelyness)
Some of them return before it is too late
Some of them learn the meaning of fate
I wish we could save more of them because it's clear
They can't all save themselves (lend a helping hand to someone less fortunate)
Decompression Chamber
Why does the sky always contract when my head is in the clouds?
It seems I've finally begun to lose touch with myself
Beside the point I'm behind the line and they won't wait for me knowing that it's a crime
I'm the one to take the fall because they stole my alliby again
All my friends have disarmed just when I needed a hand
They've been watching me slip but I'd never drag them down
I always forgive but they always forget gave them too many chances to sell me out
One day I'll learn from my mistakes and regret not waking up sooner
To this reality that you have created for me
But I liked the old one better, I'm allowed to right?
So maybe I'll spend a night alone and think
Accept the things I always deny, all the accidents and mistakes
That I'm responsible for it's time to get over this all
Time to get this working somehow and restore your faith in me
In a decompression chamber
Why does the sky always contract
When my head is in the clouds?
It seems I've lost contact
With the one who helps the most
All my friends have disarmed
Just when I needed a hand
They've been watching me slip
But I'd never drag them down
At the ruins with a view
Watched it all as it fell down
Collapsing with chaotic beauty
My home, my trust, my spirit
Buried underneath months of rust
Tried so hard, to please them all that
I forgot to help myself stay sane
When I realized it was about to break
It was too late and I could only watch...
The collapse shook me so bad
That I laughed but didn't know why
In time I realized it was right
To smile and not to cry
At the ruins with a view I see the aftermath now
All the frayed relationships and self doubt
This is not what it was supposed to be like
But I know better now and I'll rebuild
The rust is no longer a burden to me
I can now see and think more clearly
Cortecide
The following lyrics were originally written and they are the origin of the song's title, but I never actually recorded vocals for this song and came to like it as an instrumental, so there does not exist an actual recording of this song with words. These are the words, but again, I like the song better instrumentally now.
It's happening again
Quick, initiate the failsafes
Oh no, what's this?
They aren't working anymore
Looks like I'm on my own now
I'm afraid, I've never done this alone before
Blow away the uncertainty
It's the only way to make it happen
But you're in my way here
But you're only in my head
I'm usually the level headed one
What happened to me?
Seems when I'm left to my own devices
I start suffocating
Pushing forward, I'm going to find a way
Out of this maze
And I'm amazed
That I've even gotten this far at all
And the pressure overwhelms me
I don't know how I survive each time
Some might say it's a guardian angel
But I'll never believe that
It was just a thought
Another thing to condemn me
Time to set myself straight
Do you think you could help me?
But no one is here
Nobody but me
I've already proven myself
Useless
I'm useless
Useless to you
So kill me
I make the necessary decision
Start over, wipe it all clean (cortecide)
Maybe if I start over
I can get it right for once, please
The Need
Take me to a broken heart I will fix it so it never falls apart again
Such is the way that it's always been
I have so much to give, but no one's taking (they're all just faking)
I have so long to live, but no purpose to serve (what do I deserve?)
Well that's not quite true, I know what I want to do (maybe I'll save you)
But right now, that's not really coming through
But I'm in, stuck in disrepair
Suffering, from constant despair
I have so much to say but by the time she's listening
The words have begun to fade away
I have so much to do but time passes by and the desire is gone
When I'm finally with you
Well that's not quite true, I know what I want to do (maybe I'll take you)
But right now, nothing's coming true
I'm down, but I try to get back up
I always try, but something in me is stuck
Don't want to go, when there's nothing to show for my efforts
When will I know, when I've earned what I deserve?
Maybe I should just give up
Seems a good idea when fed up
But every time I've tried to lie down and die
Something inside tells me otherwise...
Take me to an empty lonely soul...
Digging up dirt from inside, I will somehow fill this hole
(Angel / Devil)
I want to be the remedy / fill this hole, want the need
to her pain, keep her sane / take the pain to my brain
keep her safe, keep her safe / till you go insane, so inhumane
love in her name / this love's in vain
Wavering
I could never love you
Time always takes those feelings away from me
You'd have to be with me forever
Or your memory would fade away
And I know you can't promise me that
Nor can I promise that to you
So enjoy me now and only now
Cause we'll never be the same again
Don't forget me if you can help it
Hearts will find their way across the divide
You inspire me to do all I can
To eliminate the reasons that we have to hide
I can not be what you need I have insecurities
Though you make me forget them temporarily they're still in me
But I want you to see everything that I could be
What I could do for you, don't worry about me
I'm okay if you can believe it
Your survival is more important to me
Your eyes have seen so much unbeauty
I want to wipe your retinas clean
And now I'm wavering, because you're unsure of me
I can't seem to make you see...
That this goes far beyond me
Wavering, I cling
To a dream, that's fading in me
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